Different Sides

I love what I do. What I do is not entirely who I am but I realize it’s a big part. I love being an artist as well. There are a couple different sides, for me, when it comes to being an artist. Most of you know me as a very out going, gregarious, fun loving and sarcastically humorous guy who loves to ham it up on stage. I love that part of me, but there’s another side. The side that most people don’t see is the quiet, shy, introverted and yes, sometimes dark, writer. It’s the part that has to happen before I can even hit the stage. It’s the side that gives me a reason to even hit the stage. I had a birthday last month. It’s always a very contemplative time for me. It’s when all the stars and planets line up where they were on the day I was born and for me it’s my new year! It always makes me think abut my life, where I am, where I’m going and how I fared over the last year. This last birthday was a hard one for me. I spent a lot of time soul searching and trying to understand what truly makes me happy. Since the CD was finished, I felt like my focus shifted from being a creative artist to being a social networking freak trying to get myself out there and visible as much as possible. Booking shows, getting a band together, promoting shows, trying to make sure all the fans knew where I was anywhere in the world and trying to keep up with messages and keep everybody happy… I do realize how important that is but I also realize how important it is to make sure I’M happy! I haven’t been very visible much on line lately… sorry if I’ve worried anyone. I’ve been on the darker, more introspective side of me. Sometimes it happens… we all keep learning about life and ourselves until we die (hopefully) and what I’m in the process of learning right now is how to find and incorporate balance in my life. To embrace the different facets of me and not feel like I’m letting people down if I need to take some time for myself. I’ve been feeling like writing a lot lately. Trying to get back to the creative artist side of me that gives me a reason to get up on the stage and ham it up. This is all new for me (relatively) and I WILL find the balance between the public fun loving performer and the private moody artist. If you’re a friend and or fan, thank you for all the love and support and for embracing all sides of me. BTW, I think my next CD is going to be called: “What The Hell Did I Say?”